As we reached the New Year, I’ve been deep in thought about the last decade. I’ve watched as everyone posted his or her accomplishments, or the highlight reel, over the last decade. Most people posted the typical American story finished college, met the love of their life, got their dream job, got engaged, got married and had kids. As much as I wanted to be involved, I couldn’t come up with anything remotely close other than the fact that I survived.
I enjoyed reading everyone’s highlight reel, but a piece of me was infuriated. Did everyone, but me have an awesome success story?? Was no one’s decade as awful as mine? Were we not being real with ourselves?? I know we don’t like to dwell on the negative, but really it can’t all be positive all of the time.
For me, the past decade was whack. I’m talking wiggity whack. It was the worst. It was also my 20s so there’s something to say about that –the struggle years, I like to call them lol– When they ask you were do you see yourself in 5, 10, 15 years, my answer was not where I am today. So when it came to the end of the decade, I felt renewed. I was honestly ready for this New Year, new decade; simply put I was just ready for new beginnings.
The beginning of the decade, 2010, started off bad. My mother broke her leg and had to fight workers comp to approve to get it fixed. It took 3 months and it healed incorrectly in the process. It took 2 years to get through that. I was 25 when I filed bankruptcy, the first time. Medical bills plus no steady full time income and having to help my mother, well it was a lot financially. I managed to graduate, but owed over 25k in student loans. I was almost homeless… 5 times. I was laid off from my job, twice. I dated nothing but fuck boys-one even proposed to someone else while we were dating, tf?!-I became very ill and the doctor’s cant figure out what is wrong with me. That’s not even half of what contributed to that terrible decade.
Believe me I got stories for days and we’ll get into them. Even through all that bad, I guess some good did come from it, though not the tangible kind. I’m a stronger person. I am more resilient. I’m more patient when getting to know someone. I learned and I’m still growing in my financial literacy. I’ve learned to love and trust myself.
The last decade prepared me for life. Most people didn’t live the life I did growing up. It was difficult. My mother struggled to provide for my brother and me. We lived in the hood and both went on to have to learn to provide as adults.
No one taught us or prepared us for adulthood. We didn’t have any handouts, nothing was given to us we had to work for everything, and fail many times to get it right.
I grew up this last decade. The hell I went through-and the hell I didn’t mention– made me all the things I am today. I don’t regret a thing, not even the pain. I learned a lot about myself. I matured.
Now that we are well into the New Year, I feel prepared. I’m ready to do life. To apply what I’ve been through and what I’ve learned, and use it to better myself going forward.
How was the 2010-2019 decade for you? What are you most looking forward to accomplish? Let’s talk about it!
So lately in my community of people we’ve all had this theme in our lives where we feel lost, but we know where we are going. We arent exactly sure how to get there or if we should keep straight or turn left or right, but we know whatever we choose we’ll be ok. We’ll get to where we need to be.
I’ve been staying that course almost all year. I’ve been purging. I feel almost like I’m shedding skin. I don’t know if it’s because ya girl is knocking on 30s door or what, but I’ve been in the spirit of “this shit has gotta go” and so it’s been going. However, lately I had been feeling cramped and cluttered even though I had purged everything I thought I possibly could. I just wasn’t happy. Now, as a Libra it’s in our nature to be indecisive, but I literally couldn’t make a damn decision. I was supposed to be finalizing birthday plans that I just couldn’t decide on. I’ve been going back and forth on things that should’ve be a piece of cake to decide on. I didn’t realize anything was wrong until I was on my way to do something I had absolutely no business doing. As I was driving I just thought “why do I keep allowing this? Why am I acting like a passenger when I’m clearly in the driver’s seat???” -Now I will say what I was on my way to do influence this sudden revelation.- It was my “ah ha” moment. It was the push of anger I needed.
I swiftly turned around and went home. While sitting in my driveway –where I do some of my best thinking– I decided to delete social media. Usually when I take a break, I just put the apps in a folder and put them on a page by themselves, but during my break I may cheat and look. This time I straight deleted the apps. No cheating. I honestly was tired of reading y’all opinions and thoughts. It’s some of the best peace I’ve had in a while. I honestly thought I would miss it, but nope. Not at all.
Around the 5/6 day of my break I decided to clean my dream/goal journal out and rewrite my notes so they were more organized and I discovered I’ve been writing the same goals/dreams for years. Every year, same.fucking. goal. I went ahead with what I was doing, but this bothered me. That night while surfing YouTube I ran across what I like to call “adulting” videos; Financial and minimalist videos. Your typical ‘things I don’t buy’ or ‘10 ways you’re wasting your money’. All of these videos resonated with me because again I’ve been purging and feeling cluttered. The more I looked around the more I just saw…. stuff. Just a lot of stuff that I really don’t need/don’t use. I hold on to stuff people get me just cause I don’t want to feel bad for letting it go –when in fact they probably don’t remember gifting me it anyway– so the more I watched the more I became invested.
The next day I woke up in what my mom called a “Katie rage”. My grandmother, Katie, will get in these moods where everything has to change and change right then because she’s tired of saying it and she fusses and complains until it’s done. Whether it’s cleaning the house or redecorating it’s getting done TADAY! -yes that’s right, ta-day– Now I must add that I was sick with an upper respiratory infection so I had been off work during this social media break and I had a lot of time to sit with my thoughts. So that day I woke up with a clarity I haven’t had…. possibly ever? My mom and I purged, cleaned, and redecorated which I’m soooooooo happy with. I work from home so I have wanted my space to be nice, ascetically pleasing. I’ve been focusing on just my bedroom for a while, but it was a lot of stuff in my house that had been in my house since I moved out of my mother’s house which was… 7/8 years ago? I was just tired of looking at it. I literally threw what seemed like half the apartment away. Sa la vie! -la vie!-
I will say my thoughts have been clear and focused, but I can’t seem to shut them off. I feel like I’m on a drug at times, but the results have been good so I’m kind of ok with it –lol-I won’t say I’m a minimalist. I dig the concept. I take some of their lifestyle and apply it to my own because we as Americans do over consume. Families in need probably wouldn’t be if some of us just learned that less is more. We don’t need a lot to survive. While I LOVE my closet –and awesome fashion sense wink wink lol- I don’t need all the clothes in my closet and could probably dress a whole 2/3 people and still be able to dress myself with my entire wardrobe. We really do live in excess. However I can’t let my closet go- even if I can’t wear half of it lol-, but I can control what I buy. Going for the structured quality items vs the fast fashion or getting Pyrex containers that are multipurpose vs. buying Tupperware. -environmentally better too–
Maybe it was time for a lifestyle change, No no it was definitely time for a more adult lifestyle change. As I go into my 30s its time to let a lot of my old habits go. Those same habits can no longer serve me where I’m trying to go.
I don’t know about anybody else, but the holidays have been draining for me- even though I was a self proclaimed Grinch seriously it was the first year I did not put up a tree and Christmas music was driving me insane! Lol- After gift shopping, holiday parties and celebrating the New Year I’m exhausted!
This year, like most, I have set some goals for myself; 3 specific goals. If you refer back to my very first video, I talk about keeping the goals to a minimum of 3 and elaborating on them. Too many goals split your focus or can become overwhelming-and I am already overworked! – try to do things to work toward your goals daily, weekly, and monthly. For instance, if your goal is to write a book; write a little each day, set a goal of a chapter a week by the end of the month you should have 4 chapters and that much closer to completing your book.
As I’ve gotten older, I have become a bit more private about the goals I set; they are very personal to me-and hello boundaries! – But I do want to share one I think everyone should be doing in some shape or form: Self Care.
Towards the end of the year things got super crazy for me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. One thing that falls to the side when things get crazy is taking care of you. This is definitely a moment to be selfish. My grandmother always tells me you can’t take care of other people if you can’t take care of yourself. It starts with you. You can’t pour into other things if you’re empty. Self care is more about working on the inside rather than outside- but don’t get it twisted keep it cute on the outside too boo-
Creating a stress free environment and setting boundaries are definitely important steps for self care. I believe your job plays a major role in stress. I personally decided to make a role change at one of my jobs. I was an admin to a director which was great for my resume, but super stressful, not at all flexible and I was slowly becoming unhappy. I took a promotion to processing behavioral medical claims. Even though it’s considered a promotion I will be doing much less than what I was doing in my other role-which I am super excited for frees up time for me to do things I want to do- also, I was being constantly consumed by work thoughts that it was clouding my mind!
Your peace of mind is yours and yours alone! It’s especially important if you suffer from mental illnesses or disorders. After my last flair up with PMDD I decided that my peace of mind was most important. I practice meditation which I get into later, but I haven’t been incorporating those tools into areas of my life outside of the physical act of meditating. I think practicing mindful meditation would help with dealing with stress throughout the day. You should be protecting your peace of mind at all cost. –Boundaries people boundaries!-
So going forward in 2018 here are some things I am incorporating to help me protect my peace of mind and continue to work on my self care.
Meditation and Reading
I talk about meditation a lot in my blog, but it’s so good for you! After a meditation session I feel refreshed. I feel mentally relieved. –Like when you got to take a nap in kindergarten – it’s totally brings the focus back to the forefront. I do my meditation sessions at night right after doing yoga and sometimes during my breaks at work. However, it’s not something I practice constantly.
After the last PMDD episode I had, I found that I was having constant anxiety and mini anxiety attacks – and for myself I want to learn how to deal with it naturally vs. taking medication, that’s just for me– I researched ways to deal with the anxiety thoughts throughout the day and one of the things I found for practicing mindful meditation. Meditation is the act of clearing your thoughts; mindful meditation is the act of training your thoughts. So whatever I’m thinking about that is causing my anxiety, I’m training myself to be aware that I’m having those thoughts and redirect my thoughts to more positive thinking.
Reading is another way I train my mind. I lovvvvvvveeeeee to read- I’m especially attracted to books about magic and wizardry– but I will read almost anything. Reading provides me an escape that nothing else does. –That feeling when you get caught up in a good book, it’s nothing like it! – I’m particular about how I read as well. I prefer physical books over reading on my phone or a kindle –and it’s something about the smell of a book– since I love to read so much I decided to create a space in my house that I could read.
So for 2018, I’m in the process of converting a corner in my bedroom into a reading nook. I’m getting a big comfy chair, pillows, and a comfy blanket, light, the whole 9. I will be sure to keep you guys updated.
Yoga and Exercise
Yoga and meditation go hand in hand. Practicing meditation is a part of yoga, which is why every session ends in a 10 minute meditation-but don’t you leave feeling relaxed and refreshed?!-
Exercising is just great for you period. –Do I really need to tell you all the benefits from exercising? – I will say I like to end a great workout in the sauna for 15-20 mins. If you have asthma like myself this helps your lungs after an intense workout. The sauna is great for colds/sinus as well. I also like to put a deep conditioner in my hair and sit in the sauna-yes with my bag on my head daring anyone to say anything! – But it’s so good for your hair and really helps the product work.
Hitting the gym is great but I prefer to run outside. Something about physically being able to see how far I’ve actually ran and see nature rather than the person’s butt in front of me or smelling that sweaty gym smell- you know what I’m talking about! – A walk in the park, a hike, walk a trail, ponder life at a stream, or bicycling around the city, fresh air is definitely another good way to clear your mind, focus on your thoughts, and gain some clarity.
Specifically a at home spa day- because we ballas on a budget over here! – I believe pampering yourself is essential. Manicures, pedicures, body butters, massage oils, massages, eyebrow threading, waxes, I need all of that. ALL. OF. THAT.
I do have a nail tech that I go to for my nails– shout out to Venus K. at Nail Lounge in the Boro! She keeps my nail in check- I also hit up the European Wax Center in Brentwood for any waxing I get done. Other than that I mainly do everything else myself. Yes that’s right, I have learned how to do my eyebrows and my own pedicures, every now and again if I’m feeling fancy I may go and get a pedicure done but I never let anyone touch my brows!!- I had 1 bad brow experience, learned my lesson, and taught myself!-
When I was younger I constantly made everyone in the house mad because I was a bathroom hog! I loved taking long hot bubble baths and listening to music- and you know singing along to all the songs- unfortunately we lived in a 3 bedroom 1 bathroom house sooooo naturally if I was in the bathroom for hours on end no one else could use the bathroom –muahahahaha- As I got older and busier, I settled for hot showers over baths and occasionally took bubble baths. This year I am bringing them back! the goal is for 1 to 2 nights out of the week dedicated to a night of relaxation. A glass bottle of wine –or cherry juice– candle lit bubble baths with neo-soul radio station. –I mean how could you not?!?!–
Therapy and Journaling
In case you haven’t notice blogging is kind of like a therapy for me. Of course it’s condensed but none the less. Therapy helps me work through my problems the best. It’s a nonbiased opinion. My therapist suggested journaling because I have a hard time with my thoughts as far as tracking them or remember certain things especially if my anxiety has kicked up.
Thinking about something isn’t enough for me I have to get it out, write it down, and say it out loud, let my thoughts flow until I can figure it out or work through it. The longer it stays in the more it festers, the more toxic it becomes… –let that shit out–
Boundaries, self affirmations, living stress free, and protecting your peace of mind are so vital in the day and age. How someone treats you is what you allow and no one will treat you better than you treat yourself! Make sure you are at the top of your list because like I said you can’t take care of others if you can’t take care of yourself. So be selfish with you, your energy, your time, your attention.
What are some things you do for self care? Let’s talk about it!
Oh wait before you go, I have updated my closet on Poshmark and dropped some prices, you can download the app here and shop my closet- @lilvee08 or you can click the link on my home page titled “shop my closet”
Hello, my name is Veronica and I’m an over-thinker. I haven’t always been this way or maybe I have and I’m just now fully aware of it. I find if I am having a PMDD (which you can read about HERE) episode my over –thinking can kick into high gear or during times of high stress I can find myself questioning everything.
In this blog, I am going to be talking about ways I have learned to deal with my over-thinking- which I have now accepted as a part of me–
It wasn’t easy getting to this point, honestly still a work in progress. Here are the things I have found help me the best.
1. You have to learn to be ok with questions you’ll never get the answers to.
This one was a big one for me, especially during a period of rejection or dating. I’m constantly trying to figure the situation out. Beat the game before it can beat me, but life doesn’t work that way. I had to learn to let it flow, be present in the moment, and let it work itself out – I recently learned this lesson by causing myself all this confusion by over-thinking the situation when the answer was simple, I don’t need all the answers let it flow naturally, but hey I’m only human– I tend to ask questions to the point of insanity for some people. I’ve mentioned in a previous blog that I’m not the person you take to the movies, I know we are both seeing the movie for the first time; however, I will ask questions. I ask questions even if it’s a movie I have already seen.- It’s pretty ridiculous.- I like to know things fully before I give all of my attention to it, which I find to be a positive thing, but rather than being present in the moment and letting it flow, ill question it to death. I’m learning to silence the thoughts by practicing mindful thoughts and countering them with positive thoughts-not saying my thoughts/questions are negative, but they can drive me to the point of insanity.
2. You will have to work hard to change your thinking
This was also another gem I recently discovered. Your thoughts control your actions and reactions to situations and the way you perceive things. Over-thinking can make you think things are one way when they aren’t and vice versa. I’m a Libra, so I try to see situations from all sides. I try to put myself in the shoes of others and see things from their perspective. Sometimes this creates more questions because I can also see it from my perspective. I can literally flood my mind with thoughts and it’s not even that deep. In times where I’m dealing with rejection or some sort of “loss”, if you will, I have to constantly train my mind to go from over analyzing to words of positive affirmations, because I can be my own worst critic.-but hey aren’t we all?
3.Write it out!
Rapping, writing, poetry, song writing, listen whatever form you have to use to work it out use it! Journaling for the win “What you reveal, you heal”-Jay Z (and some others I’m sure) but it’s true. How can you heal from something if you’re not willing to reveal it? Not reveal it in the sense that you have to declare it to the world, but to yourself. Sometimes we will deny our own truths or suppress them thinking that if we ignore them we’ll get over them. –Boy are you wrong– all you’re doing is giving it power to fester. Would you get shot and not have it checked out? Would you find out you have cancer and just ignore it thinking it’ll go away if you act like it’s not there? No. So why would you deal with your problems like that?! Therapy works, but if you really don’t want to share express it some way, better out than in.
4. Distract yourself
Constantly over thinking, over analyzing, dwelling is not healthy for the mind, clear it out and focus that energy on self. In times of rejections, break-ups, self doubts, and life’s little curve balls will throw over-thinkers, like myself, into overdrive. We are determined to figure out why? What happened? How can I fix this? What can I learn from this? How can I make this better or change it to my favor? The answer is simple: you don’t. Let’s circle back to #1, You have to accept that you don’t have all the answers. You HAVE to let it flow. How does an over-thinker let it flow? Starve that part that you’re dwelling over, distract yourself. Something I learned from baseball, when the pitcher is getting ready to throw the ball he focuses on where he wants the ball to go, he feels the energy flow through ball, he twist it in his hands, gets it ready to throw, and just before he gets into motion he looks away. There’s a study that says for perfect work productivity you work 52 mins and walk away for 17 mins. You have to stop thinking about it, to think about it. –Crazy I know– I have found that I have figured more out while not thinking about it than I did overt-thinking it. I have found that by distracting myself with meditation, yoga, getting outdoors –because I work 24/7 365, its very important to stop and get fresh air– dance, reading, working on my craft, music, coloring- yes this helps– exercising, and becoming my best self has helped me more than constantly mulling over a situation. Once I find myself completely distracted I somehow have an “ah ha” moment.
5.Appreciate the “ah ha” moments
Sometimes you have to go through it to grow through. That last sentence was an “ah ha” moment within its self. Be careful with the “ah ha” moments. Sometimes they can throw you back into thinking about a situation. “Ah Ha” moments are beautiful when they happen. They make you appreciate everything you went through to get to that moment. More so because it allows you to finally see why you had to go through that situation. Leveling up, struggle moments, moments you feel like you’re being tested, they mean something in the long run. It’s important to appreciate them for what they are, but don’t let them drive you back down the road of questioning everything.
These 5 tips have helped me tremendously, but like I said before definitely a work in progress. This is probably something I will always have to work on, learning to be quite and realize I don’t need the all the answers especially because time reveals all.
Are you an over-thinker? Comment below some of the things that help you be still in calm your mind. Let’s talk about it!
Why do we as humans suffer in silence? We all act like we have to walk around like everything is fine 100% of the time. I believe this is why suicide rates are so high. Mostly because we as humans care about what other people think. –yes you too Linda stop trying to act like you don’t!– whether it’s your man, your crush, your friends, strangers, we all like to put on this front like we have it all together when actually I know not 1 person that has a “perfect” life –can we pause on that what is perfect? What is normal? These are both terms that only you can define for yourself, but I digress–
We all want to put on this facade instead of reaching out or being afraid to admit we’re hurt. –hello social media
I asked a question on my Facebook “Which is worse pretending like we don’t care or wearing your heart on your sleeve?”
Overwhelmingly, everyone agreed that pretending like we don’t care was worse. I can’t say I’m not surprised by this answer, but I am surprised that we stillact the opposite.
I’ve been talking a lot about being open -you guys this shit is probably the hardest thing emotionally I’ve done, but here I am and here we go– I thought by being open and allowing the universe to bring positive vibes I would reap great rewards-foolish girl– vulnerability is hard. Transparency is hard. You’re opening yourself up and saying to a person this is truly who I am, like me or leave me. Most will leave you, some will like you, you just never know what you’re going to get.
The tricky part is when you really care for someone and you trust them with your feelings and you show them and they leave you. Now you out here wide open left with all these feelings and emotions and nowhere to put them and you regret being open. There’s beauty in the pain. It hurts, but there’s beauty in knowing that at least you laid it out there. Now what do you do with all these emotions and feelings? There’s no suitcase to pack them in and store for later!
I am a natural writer. The notes on my Iphone are so full because I literally found I have to write everything down in my head so that I don’t feel so cluttered. –and also so I don’t forget an idea– I found what works best for me is to write letters.
Sometimes you have to write them letters they will never receive.
It’s not for them it’s for you.
Sometimes you need to say the words they are never going to hear.
It’s not for them it’s for you.
Sometimes you need to tell them how you feel even if they are never going to feel it.
It’s not for them it’s for you.
We are like vaults. We unconsciously hold things inside and carry it around never putting it into the universe. That’s a toxic way to live don’t you think?
When I began my journey on being open, I really didn’t know what the fuck I was doing. Boy I had no idea what I was manifesting. But I was harboring some deep shit! Here’s the first lesson I learned immediately upon turning 28, you can’t “be open” and hold it in. It doesn’t work like that.- Now, as I’m typing this I’m sure somewhere on my page is a blog where I’m telling you how to really know if you’re over a situation. I should re-label that how you THINK you know you’re over a situation lol.- 28 was brought in with some big ol crocodile tears, and not for such the joyous occasion it should be, but for the letting go I so desperately needed to do.
Here’s the thing, how do you let go? I think that looks different for everybody. I would love to tell you how to figure it out, but up until right before I typed this blog I thought I had let it go and figured it out, but guess what?! You know nothing Jon Snow! I figured the best way at that moment- and to stop the tears– was to work through it. As I stared out my window sobbing and talking to the universe and God, I decided to write. I decided to write letters. I tried to pinpoint exactly what or who these tears were for and I wrote to them- honest, no sugar coating, letters-.
I wrote them letters I never plan for them to see. Something about seeing it on paper cleansed my spirit. Now, I’m not going to sit here and lie and say I felt 100% better. The more I wrote the harder I cried because some of the letters I wrote required an action I wasn’t prepared for; letting go. I needed to remove some people from my life. Not because their bad people and they were hurting me, but because I loved them. They say if you love something you’ve got to let it go and if comes back then it means so much more… but if it never comes at least you know it was something you had to hold on to grow. I always thought letting go meant it had to be toxic, but sometimes letting go means love, the best kind of love you can give is setting someone free.
Now after the letters were written and the tears have dried, I took all that energy, love, and time into me. –yes girl right back into myself. – Because no one can love me better than me! When I started this journey and 28 was approaching, the year felt different. –again this is my magical year I feel it- I am changing and with that change comes getting to know myself just a little better. I am being prepared.-remember positive vibes only!
What are some things you do to let go?
And when you do what are some things you do with the left over energy?
I’ve been feeling full. Not in the “I just ate a great meal and I’m about to float off into the itis” full- which I would have gratefully preferred-. My soul has been full of negative energy. I couldn’t figure out what I could’ve done or opened myself up to, to suck in all of this negative energy.
Ok that’s a lie, I have been working on opening myself up to be vulnerable and alive. What I didn’t realize was I was also opening myself up to negativity.
Our environment can greatly affect us, in the best and worse ways, which left me to look at only one source: work. I work all the time-I may have taken Kevin Gates lyrics way too serious– but one job was becoming so toxic I was letting it affect other areas of my life.
I didn’t even realize I was picking up the energy and carrying it with me, but I’m sure my subconscious realized something was off. I randomly began to say while at work, “I refuse to talk about this, I don’t need that negative energy in my life.” and I would close my eyes and take a quick inhale and long exhale.
I noticed I was saying it all the time to the point where I was very aware every time I said it. Not only that, but I began to slowly and firmly put my foot down and stand on what I was saying and not letting anyone sway me on my decision and then there was the obvious; I just blatantly stopped giving a fuck.
The more it happened, I began to feel clearer and the clearer I became the more apparent it was to me that it was time for a job change or to make a change in the job. The job was dulling my creativity.
I put my creativity above everything. My creativity is who I am. I have to be able to express myself in whatever medium that may be, I know that I am not Veronica or LilSis without my creativity, without the ability to unapologetically express myself. To leave it all on the table and be proud of what I just did. And this job indeed was not providing me that comfortability because I was so consumed with the toxic part all I was pouring out was the negativity and a horrible attitude it was pouring into me. Instead of being empty and allowing the universe and ideas flow to and through me, I was eating everything negative and projecting out attitude and disdain.
Now, with that being said I know what you all are wondering, did you quit the job? As much as I would love to say yes! I laid it all out on the table, let them have it and chucked the deuces!!! I like my bills to be paid on time and a roof over my head. So if there was no way around it, I had to learn to work through it. Rather than allowing myself to become extremely upset and carry what ever happened at work with me, I chose to look at it through different lenses, a comical one if you will. this was a job, not my career, not my passion, not my main focus, just a means to pay my bills so that I could focus on my passion and purpose- cause lets be honest its all just work until my passion and purpose step in and make me millions–
The key is to be choosy on what you allow yourself to be open to and how you react to it.
Not every cause deserves a reaction. That is something I learned in anger management. –see therapy does help!– Sometimes the best response is no response at all. It takes a certain level of maturity to reach this, however. Once I figured out how to control my reactions to the situation and not focus so much energy on it, I began to feel a little better. I had to tell myself this job is not the important thing here, my acting is, my blogging is, the things that I am passionate about, the things that feed my soul that’s what’s most important. I had to learn to stop caring about the things that didn’t feed me or only took away from me because they were turning me into a bitter mean person.
I did, however, purge. In order to replace the negative energy with positive energy I had to empty all the negative out. I sat and wrote a very detailed email to my leadership and sent it with a prayer that hopefully –faithfully– everything would get better and if not for me at least for the next employee that takes the job. -and let me tell you guys it was an instant change in energy! 5 mins before the email I was ready to leave the job and hustle to find better, but once that email was sent it was like a weight lifted off of me and my soul was no longer anchored! I immediately felt the positive energy radiate through me!
What are some things you focus on that do not serve a purpose in your life? What are some things that take up way too much space in your soul that you can purge? Leave them in the comments below! Lets Talk About It!
So lately in my blogs, I have been talking about being overwhelmed, overworked and stressed out. After I had my mental break I decided to put my health first-because I believe in doctors, but not all medicine is good medicine. There were some things I did when I had more time, in the past, but I have let some things go due to not having enough time- but as the saying goes, you make time for what you want. Being that I’m struggling with high stress and bad sleep habits I had to change and QUICK! So I want to share with you what I do to reduce stress and what helps get me the proper amount of good sleep.
Organic Tart Cherry Juice
Organic tart cherry juice was introduced to me, from a dear coworker, after I explained that I felt like I was sleeping, but not resting, I could not get settled down enough to go to sleep on time. Let me tell you guys this is the stuff of miracles! It gives you the mellow feeling that comes with wine without the alcohol. I had tried melatonin, however I would wake up irritable -I didn’t like it and I’m sure people I encountered didn’t either. It does have a tart taste, hence the name, but I love tart, sour foods so I love it. Plus it has some wonderful health benefits, along with giving you a better quality of sleep- it helps me fall and stay asleep- it regulates metabolism, and helps muscles repair after a workout. It also boosts your immune system! This stuff saved my life, and spared a few people’s feelings!
Cardio and the Sauna
Speaking of muscle recovery, I have only recently started getting back into exercising. I notice a major change in my overall being when I consistently work out, Keyword consistently-because I start and stop and start and stop a lot and it really hurts me more than helps when I do that- but when I do it consistently I feel great throughout the day, and my energy levels go all the way up -Fat Joe voice- I mainly stick to running- because honestly when I incorporate weights I suddenly hate the gym, baby steps baby steps- also I have asthma and running helps build my lungs and airways. After a good run, I loveloveLOVE to get in the sauna. 20 minutes with just me and my thoughts, it’s so relaxing to me, I cannot explain it. I feel ten times better plus it helps with the soreness.- Bonus, I also get my stretch in while I’m in the sauna so it’s almost like hot yoga, if you will.
Speaking of yoga, if I can’t make it to the gym for my workout and that lovely sauna, I will take 10-15 minutes before I go to bed, after drinking my cherry juice, I will do yoga and stretching. I will do common stretches to warm my body up before I go into the yoga poses. There’s a couple of poses I do routinely to limber up and calm me down. I stay in a pose for at least 30 seconds. The fun part about this is you can do it all using your bed-say what?!- Yes girl, the bed is my yoga mat! So when I’m all done I go straight to bed. Yoga is beneficial for insomnia and sleep problems. This coupled with my cherry juice-I’m telling you guys it is AWESOME!-
If I have learned anything in acting class, it’s to always focus focus FOCUS! It’s the first thing and most important thing of acting. How long can one focus though? My attention span is very very short, I’ve learned- worse than the dog in the movie Up. Squirrel! – Meditation has allowed me to clear my head and really focus on keeping it that way for I’m almost at 10 minutes now.- I know 10 minutes doesn’t sound like a lot of time, and sounds very easy, but trust me its sooooooo hard! especially for an over thinker like me.- I like to do this at the end of my bedtime yoga or when I’m in the sauna- and sometimes in the middle of a busy work day- I usually lay in the middle of my bed, eyes closed, feet together spread eagle, and my palms facing up. It’s the most refreshing feeling to just not think about anything and focus on the breath, especially for someone who is constantly stressing.
Like meditation, reading requires a lot of focus. However, if it’s a really good book I can get lost in the words and it’s not like I’m reading at all. I like reading as a hobby, but the plus to it is its works as a stress reliever because I get to forget whatever it is I have going on in my mind and get pulled into this other world. I always gravitate towards magic, witchery and other worlds –fantasy- but every now and then I’ll pick up a book that is just dealing with real life and drama –and it’s not mine! Ha!- the added plus to this is you get to actually learn while distressing.
These small changes take me from barely making it to feeling like i can conquer the world! Give these tips a try and let me know if they change your life in the comments below!