World Stop! Carry on..

I am an introvert at heart. I enjoy having fun and being social, but as much fun as that is, it’s also draining. I enjoy being alone. I enjoy being in my own world with my quirky little habits. I enjoy dancing around my house in my underwear singing at the top of my lungs eating ice cream straight out of the tub.
failed-resolutions-resized-600When this past year started, I had so many goals I wanted to accomplish. I’m usually the person that makes New Year’s Resolutions, but a month into the New Year; I completely blank on or forgot about those resolutions. –I have been trying to lose 30 pounds for 3 years -_-. Going into 2016 I really want to check some stuff off my list and I did, but once my list was getting checked off it only made me want to add more. This is where the balancing act came into play.

Balance.
Life is like a game of juggle sometimes. You juggle your needs, wants, career, and sometimes the curve ball life throws at you. You can become so focused on the game that you begin to lose sight of life and being in the moment. You become so focused on the act of juggling, that it’s routine. The game isn’t fun anymore, and now your body has the anigif_enhanced-buzz-21476-1427232414-14instinct and naturally knows how to juggle. So much so, that you can juggle with your eyes closed. The fun is now replaced with stress. Your arms are getting heavy, but you are focused. You are not going to let any of the balls drop. Your eyes are weary. Your body is giving out, but you are so determined to complete your task you ignore the signs. Until one day, you drop a ball. And like a snowball effect, all the balls fall. Your body has reached its limit. And you’re out the game. Mentally drained and physically exhausted.

Relaxation.

I had to take a step back. Mentally and physically I had no choice. I’m used to working 2 jobs 64+ hour work week, 7 days a week. I’m used to never pursuing things I want for myself. I changed that in 2016. I explored hobbies, I found my purpose, and I pursued my dreams, all while maintaining 2 jobs 64+ hour work week, 7 days a week. –talk about juggling! One morning I woke up, and physically could not move, work was not an option. I went to the doctor for her to tell me I was exhausted and I had a few vitamin deficiency and she gave me a mandatory 2 days off- which doesn’t seem like much, but it was very much needed to someone who only gets holidays off-

Thank God for friends. I took a trip to my friend’s lake house and got some much needed relaxation. While there in the middle of nowhere I found a little bit of restoration and rejuvenation.

Realization.

bossWe as individuals can be so hard on ourselves. Something inside me wanted to achieve so bad, which can sometimes be a good thing, but at what cost? I compare myself to my role models, people I aspire to become. If they can do it, what’s stopping me? I live by “You have the same 24 hours as Beyoncé. Get shit done.” Not a bad motto when you are Beyoncé and you have a team of people helping you to achieve your goals and dreams. I’m just one person. The actor, the cameraman, the editor, and the news reporter on my own story.

 

Re-invention.

7408e98bb9a3427e2cc6a218958dbfa8Going into this new year, let’s change up the way we do things –New Year, new me, who dis?- I had the concept right last year,3 goals, break those goals down into months, then weeks, then days. Work on them each little by little until the goal is complete.-I even made a video about it, see below or click ⇒ here – Sounds logical right? Until life happens and then what goals? Implementation is key right? Creating the goal and starting the goal is the easy part, actually following through and completing the goal that’s a completely different ball game- that I haven’t even made the team for, OK!-One of the things I find that hinders myself from completing the goal, is my mindset. If you think positive you stay positive, if you think this is going to fail, it will fail, if you think negative well you get what you think.- see where this is going?

42fda8172eb2c6d21113218e525032fe I have to constantly check in with myself once those feelings arise. I self-doubt, A LOT. Any form of art, you’re leaving yourself vulnerable. You’re literally taking something that is very special to you, something that took, hours, days, months, and years to make and then you present it for the world to see and not everyone is going to like it- that you know- but you are just hoping it is received well. You hope that it was received in the light that you made it in. As a writer, everything I publish is my baby, so I’m very protective of it. I struggle with writing sometimes because I can get a bit too personal. I’m very proud of what I write, I know it helps sooo many of you. Knowing that should be enough for me to keep going right? WRONG! I began to doubt that what I have to say is not very important. But isn’t it? That’s where I have to check myself. Ok, I’m feeling self-doubt. But that’s my own fear not allowing me to be great and fear and faith can’t reside in the same place. I have to literally tell myself out loud I am more than this. I am better than this someone out there is depending on me. I check that emotion and I continue on my way. Dreading going to work? Check that emotion, if you think it will be a shitty day guess what? It will be a shitty day! Humble yourself. Do you know how many people would kill for that very job so they can have that income?! It’s all about retraining your thoughts. As soon as that thought comes in CHECK THAT SHIT!

 

 

Let’s Recap, Toast to the Halfway Mark!

I had a lot of fun with the Month of Music. Thank you again to all the artist that allowed me to interview them, I enjoyed every minute! I hope some networking came from it, you got new fans, and maybe some new opportunities.

Now that the Month of Music is over, lets get back to our regularly schedule program. With it being June-OMG the year is halfway over AHHHHH!- I’ve been looking over my goals and I can’t believe I have everything pretty much checked off! How are you guys doing with that? -If you are lost, check this out.

Can you believe that was my very first goal of the year? Lets talk about something you guys may not know. I make a lot of things sound very easy on here, but life is not as breezy as it appears.

I have had a rough start to my year. One of the worst things -or so i thought- that happened was I got laid off from my full time job. For 30 seconds after I got laid off I panicked. All these thoughts about bills, money, and what to do next flooded my head. For the first time in a long time, I had absolutely no clue what I was going to do.

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After about 30 seconds of freaking out and praying, calmness came over me and I knew everything was going to be a
lright. It’s was going to be rocky, but it was going to be okay.

I took the time off to dive into things that were always just a dream to me. I got a wonderful opportunity to be on a popular TV show, I started my YouTube channel, and I really started to take my blogging seriously. Now all of this sounds so exciting; and it was. However, there were times when I was uncertain, scared, and completely shut down from being overwhelmed.

These first 6 months of the year were full of up and downs. A lot of downs and a lot of dwelling in the moment. Gosh, I am the queen of dwelling. I don’t know how to move on from something that truly hurt me. I’m so used to doing it, that I don’t even realize I do it.

Something Keke Palmer said-if you don’t follow her on snapchat, you are doing yourself a huge disservice- really spoke to me, she said we as human beings can reply a moment over and over again in our head, and we allow the energy of that moment, when somebody or something hurt us, to spill into other good moments, and ruin what could have been a great moment. So allow yourself to feel that bad moment for seconds, or hours, but know that only you have the power to let it go.

DeathDwellingPastStayingI never allowed myself to feel those bad moments.I never realized that I, Me and only ME, had the power to move on from that moment. I would take those moments and add them to this brick wall I was building. And every time I had a good moment I would pick out that brick that hurt me and no matter how good that moment was, I would ruin it. Self sabotaging. I would turn what could have been a beautiful moment, or what I could have turned into a positive on only focus on the negative the moment presented. Waiting for a  series of good moments to change my moo
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“Rock bottom became the foundation on which I built my life”

I had a couple bad moments within the first half of the year. Every time I thought I hit rock bottom, I hit a lower floor. But after I heard those words, I allowed myself to feel that moment for however long I needed and instead of using that brick to build a wall, I used it to build my foundation. J.K Rowling said, “Rock bottom became the foundation on which I built my life”.  Rather than be hurt by those moments, I’m grateful. I learned. I grew. I’m stronger.

6358791146522069822127800330_learn from the pastSo Often we are told that its our perception of a situation that defines it. If you look at it as a negative, it will be negative. If you think of it as positive it will be a positive moment. And if you look at it as a blessing, it will be a blessing. i had a lot of unexpected “negatives”, but each “negative” prepared me for the next. Had I not gone through the one before, I wouldn’t have known how to handle the next. -Blessings-
As we move into the last half of the year, lets practice changing our mind set. -Positive Vibes Only, even the so called negative ones-

I’ve been keeping to my 3 major goals- I’ve have knocked 2 off, 1 being taking my blogging seriously, 2. is well…. announcement coming soon :)- but one of my minor goals-not even sure if you could call it that so lets go with practice- is to be present in the moment. Too often I am so focused on my phone shuffling between apps that I have wasted HOURS.

So, I will be removing myself from the social media world until July and I invite anyone reading this blog to join me! Blogs are already scheduled and will still go up every Monday- so if you’re not subscribed, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???- I will return in July with what I was able to change, accomplish and learn. I may pop up in-between with my special announcement, who knows…. keep your eyes out on IG- @lilsisveebspot.

 

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Itz C. Ward

 

Here’s an artist that has been on the grind since high school. Coming out of Murfreesboro,TN, C.Ward has hit the pavement running to make a name for himself in the hip-hop industry. With his album being released this year, titled The Honor Roll, now available for pre-orders at i-Tunes,Google Play, Amazon, and at Itzcwardmusik.com,  C. Ward is making waves. I talked to C. Ward to gain his perspective on the music industry and what’s next for him.

 

What was the determining factor or influence that made you push everything to the side and really pursue music?

My determining factor that made me pursue music more thoroughly was when income started coming in. Once I started receiving checks for my recorded songs, whether it was from publishing or performances; it motivated me to achieve more.

 

Money is never a bad motive -lol-. When it comes to you style of music, Who are your musical influences?

My musical influences would be Lil’ Wayne, Big Sean, and Wiz Khalifa to name a few. Business wise, in the music industry, I am influences by Diddy and Jay-Z.

 

I’m very old school when it comes to music. With rap I like people who can paint a story with their rhymes, like Jay-Z, Kanye, J.Cole, Drake, Nas, Tupac, Biggie, Eminem, Kendrick Lamar, Queen Latifa, a lot of messages and a purpose to rap, I feel like that art has gotten lost with the quick trends in music,; what would you like to see change within the hip hop industry?

I would like to see more originality with other artists in the music industry. To be successful in the industry you have to stand out, and have an inspiring concept. Most artists in today’s generation use the same sound or format which can get repetitive.

 

Yes, I feel like the originality has gotten lost in the content. Speaking of originality, Every artist has a top 5 best rappers of all time, what’s yours? 

  • Biggie
  • Tupac
  • Jay-Z
  • Nas
  • Lil Wayne

 

All those artist, with the exception of Tupac * moment of silence* have children and music seemed to change once they had kids. You also are a father, did that have any influence on your music?

Definitely. My son is my main priority to why I am still sacrificing to achieve my goals. He’s my inspiration when creating music.

 

Inspiration is a major key in this business. Where do you see yourself in the music industry?

I see my developing and progressing in the business. Hopefully landing a distribution deal for my music label.

 

I wasn’t familiar with you rapping until college, when did you realize music was your passion?

It was around my senior year in high school. I performed at my high school talent show with a few friends and my classmates and peers really enjoyed it. After getting that energy from the crowd that really motivated me to take it seriously.

 

Getting feedback is such a positive way to give you that confidence to pursue your dreams. You’ve been fortunate enough to find your passion and the courage to pursue it, what advice would you give to people who struggle to go after their dreams?

Stay motivated and step outside your boundaries. My success has come from outside sources that believe in my work.

 

I definitely agree with stepping outside your boundaries. Some of my best moves came from moving out of my comfort zone. So, now that we got where you’ve been in the music industry, where can we hear your music and when can we expect new music

My album will be release this year, The Honor Roll. Expect more music from T$MG as well.

 

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Huge thank you to C. Ward, it was a pleasure to do this interview. I’m looking forward to hearing the new music from the album ‘ The Honor Roll’ which you can pre-order now at Itzcwardmusik.com I-Tunes,Google Play, and Amazon, and will be available for download and streaming on Tidal and Spotify on May 31, 2016. Follow him on social media:

IG/Twitter @ItzCWard_

Snapchat: ItzCWard

and for business inquires -itzcwardmusik@gmail.com

 

Until next time guys!

XOXO

MissMamaQueen

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First up in my month of music, is MissMamaQueen who hails from Murfreesboro, TN. Starting her rap career as a Femcee at just 13 years old, MissMamaQueen has taken the femcee game by storm. MissMamaQueen has had a long and successful career with around a million in ringtone downloads, being on stage with Femcee Shawnna, and recently adding author to her resume with the book ‘Many Men’, MissMamaQueen has shown me, and others, that there’s nothing a woman can’t do.

 

You’ve had an amazing career in the hip hop music industry, being able to meet and rap with huge names within the female rap industry, who are your musical influences?

-Of course I have my favorite artist that I love to listen to such as Monica, Beyonce, Whitney, Eve, Shawnna, Lil’ Mo, and others, but they don’t have direct influence on my own music. What I can say, is the artist that I have grown into is the sound of Missy in  90’s. It’s that mixture of Hip-Hop, Rap, Love stories, and ballads. When I first got into music, I did find myself channeling Eve and Mia X, as I was trying to figure out my direction and lane. Being able to perform with Shawnna, and have one on one, heart to hearts about the music industry and being a woman in the industry, was definitely an eye opener for me. I tell her all the time; she taught me so much, specifically the importance of being a woman in the game and standing on your own. The last couple of years, I have found myself being comfortable with creating my own sound, following what my heart says, and not being influenced by what else is going on around the music scene.

Since you’ve been in the game for so long, where do you see your musical career going?

– I honestly have never looked at music as a career. Music has been a part of my life for almost 15 years now. To me music is an outlet and a talent that I have, that I share with the world. I record music all the time, without even releasing it. I know people say it all the time, but it really is a form a therapy for me. A lot of things I bottle up, but then go make a song about it. At the end of the day, regardless of how it plays out, I just want to be able to say I told my story, and people listened. Also, I believe 1000% in God aligning things and situations. I believe it’s going the way God sees fit.

I definitely understand that, blogging for me is the therapy that music is for you. You’re in an industry where it’s already stacked against you being a female rapper, what has been your experience with why it’s so hard to be a female MC?

-I think females make it harder for each other more than anything. You have females sleeping with the producers, engineers, and managers. You have females that don’t want to see another female shine, or they link/click up with who boosts their presence. Also you have females that are intimidated and offended by another woman’s confidence or willingness to stand-alone. I have always been the outsider especially locally. I’m not in to the fake networking and ‘buddy buddy’ system. I have rarely found genuine bonds. I see a lot of chasing other’s fan base. At this point, I don’t think it’s hard to be a female MC. I think it’s hard for women to respect themselves and step outside the local mentality and outside the box. When we realize that there’s more to it than rapping about how good your vagina or head is, or how many b**ches you will slap, it will makes sense. Although it shouldn’t be, I have noticed it’s hard for women to be real and 100 to themselves and the music.

  

I like that you stand by your morals and you don’t compromise yourself. You kind of touch on this with your song ‘Beautiful You’, its probably one of my favorite songs,-aside from ‘Imma Go Hard’- because I relate the most to it being that I never felt beautiful in my chocolate skin until recently, and it sends a positive message about self love and embracing your flaws, what inspired that song?

-‘Beautiful You’ has [got to be] the most genuine feedback from any song that I have ever wrote, from women and men all across the world. It’s one of my favorite and most personal songs. Anyone that has been in the studio with me knows that either I absolutely love a record or I don’t, from the moment the beat is played. A majority of the time, once I hear the first bars of the beat, I already have the title of the record or at least a theme. Every once in a while, I will hear a beat and get [a chill], that’s when I know it’s special. ‘Beautiful You’ was one of those times. My producer looked at me crazy because he had gotten on to me about doing so many slow ballads for the album. The first thing that came out was, “Beautiful You, Beautiful You, You’re Beautiful.”

How many times have we heard, “She aint no Beyonce, but she straight!” Society has told us what beautiful should look like.

If she’s dark skinned, she better have a nice body.

If she’s light skinned, she better have nice hair and pretty eyes.

If she’s heavy set, she has to have a cute face.

If she’s skinny, she has to have a big butt.

The inspiration for me was, “Wanting to inspire myself.” It’s okay to hear a man tell you “You are beautiful!” It feels good when you post a picture and people say, “You’re beautiful!”

However, you are the only one in the mirror in the morning and at night in those raw and rare form moments. How beautiful can you really be, if you can’t honestly tell yourself that you are?

 

You took the words right out of my mouth. I preach this every chance I get because it’s so important to have that self-love. With my blog I push for people to follow their dreams and find their purpose. I feel like many people give up on that dream, because it’s not an easy road, its hard work! What advice would you give to people- especially female MC-who are struggling to follow their passion?

-My biggest motto to live by is, “If it doesn’t feel right. It’s not right.” Remember, once you say something on record, it’s out there forever. Do not listen to the radio. Write and speak from your heart. No matter how twisted your life or situation is, there is someone out there who will relate. Your story is your story for a reason. Inspire yourself to inspire others. The road isn’t easy, and if it is there will be hell on the other side.

 

I’ve peeped that you’ve been in the studio lately, when can we expect some new music and where can the people who aren’t familiar with you, checkout your music?

-My album is in the production process and anyone who has done an album will tell you it’s the most frustrating and drawn out process you will ever see. I have no release date at this time. I want to make sure it’s done 100% before I set any expectations for myself or for my fans. This will be my first full production album, so I really want to take my time and go down the correct channels. We are looking to have it available on iTunes, Amazon, Google Store, etc. ‘Beautiful You’ is the only full record we have released so far. In the works of revamping my official fan site, but until then I have music on www.Reverbnation.com/MissMamaQueen . I’m in the building stages of getting a video together for ‘Beautiful You’, but it has to be perfect with a story line, so that’s something I’m working on now as well.

 

img_4819Well I for one cannot not wait to hear it! Just for fun, Its no secret that you are a Monica and Beyonce/destiny child fan, but you have to pick just one, who will it be?

-OMG. This isn’t fair at all! I would say Monica! I have had the opportunity to meet her and talk with her, and she’s just amazing all around. I relate so much with her personal story, life tragedies, and triumphs. She is so humble, and to me the underdog, but legend of the R&B world. She is comfortable with what she has meant to the music game, even if they never put her on the Whitney or Bey platform. She knows her crowd and who she inspires. If you have ever seen her perform live, you can see her genuine love for what she does. Yessss Monica! LOL.

 

I would’ve chosen Monica Too! A huge thank you to MissMamaQueen for allowing me the pleasure to interview her! I was very inspired and motivated. I love interviews where I can learn something in the process and this was definitely that for me. Click the link here to check out her music and check out the video below of what’s to come!

Until Next Time Guys!

XOXO

Who Do You Love?

Valentines-Day-Chuck  As a single person with friends, married and in relationships, it looks as though it’s a long road. You begin to get questions such as when are you getting a man? You’re too pretty to be single? You must be lonely? And you even begin to question yourself, what’s wrong with me? I wish I had somebody to go here, why can’t I find a decent man? I too put myself in this boat.

pk3h2GdElEexThen something strange happened. I began to take the focus off of finding a man and put the focus on me. I began to find out who I was, what I wanted, and what made me happy.

What I eventually learned was that I like being single! -say what?- you read that right! I like having my space. I enjoy my peace and quiet. I like time to myself. I like getting to discover who I am and what I like and don’t like.

Don’t get me wrong every now and again it’s nice to experience those things with another. But I’m so invested in myself and the life I’m creating for me that it’s going to take someone pretty amazing to distract, attract me. I’m young and God willing I’ll live a long life and be able to experience that with the one God blesses me with, but for now I’m having fun. I’m investing in myself. And I must say I’m loving every minute of it!blogger-image-1106284924

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image When I write my blogs I speak my truth. At the end of it all we just want to be in our truth and accepted. The problem with this concept is not every one will accept or understand your truth. I can only speak on my experiences and what I’ve learned from them and hope that someone reads them and sees a different perspective or knows that someone out there went through the same thing and they are not alone. I never write to be malicious or petty, if that’s what you take away from my blog, then the problem is the reader- sorry to be so blunt-.

When you read my blogs, I want you to open your mind. Not everything is black, not everything is white; it’s a contrast of shades in-between. I wan
t to strike a positive conversation. With social media being as popular as it is and people giving their negative opinions, I want a place where we can have a positive conversation. Spark inspiration, not negativity.

tumblr_miwal6Pjoy1qfpilno1_500I say this because before, I got my toes wet to see what the response would be. Some people took it wayyyy to serious. Others gave me positive feedback. I got a little discouraged just from the sensitive people’s feedback I got, but it goes back to I’m not doing this for you. This is for me. This is the space I come to, to sip my tea and live my truth. This is the space that I come to, to let it all out. This is the space I come to, to share my life experiences. And during all that, in the process I’m hoping you laugh, you cry, you sympathize, you learn, you get your life and sip your tea. Not everybody is going to do that, I understand. People who know the specific experience may feel like I’m talking to them or about them and take it personally –don’t flatter yourself boo boo simmer down, this is not about you!

Going forward it’s going to get a lot more personal. I’ve withheld talking about a lot simply because I wasn’t doing it for me. So I hope you guys are ready for this wonderful ride we are about to take in this New Year!

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What’s Stopping You?

8-1-1One of my biggest pet peeves is when someone continually talks about something that they want to do, and never puts any actions into it. They could have the most amazing idea, but you’ll never know it because they don’t get the idea into actions. As my grandmother would say, “either shit or get off the pot”.

thomas-edison-quotes-on-failure-11A coworker told me a story about Thomas Edison and how when he was little his teacher sent him home with a note and told him not to open it to give it directly to his mother. Once his mother got the note she began to read it and cry. Edison asked his mother what the note said, and she told him that it said he was a genius and that they weren’t equipped to teach him. Years later after Edison had gone on to invent life-changing things, his mother passed. While going through her stuff, he found the note from his teacher and read it. The note actually read that he was retarded and that the school wasn’t equipped to teach him. This story, holds the saying true you are what you believe you are, or what you’re told you are. Thinking and perception is a huge influencer. If you think it long enough you will begin to believe it.

vYO8SocMoreover, one of my favorite inspirational speeches is by Jim Carrey. He spoke at a college graduation talking about following your dreams. –Jim Carrey & Morgan Freeman have unbelievable stories about success by the way, if you’re feeling like you’re never going to make it google them and read their bio extremely inspiring- In his speech, he talked about how his father wanted to be a comedian, but was to afraid he was going to fail and went with what he thought was a sure thing and became an accountant. His father later got fired as an accountant the family landed on hard times. Carrey said that this taught him you might as well do what you love because even you can fail at the sure thing. Until I heard that speech, I never looked at it like that, quite frankly I don’t think anybody does.
97ae11eae5153a76a2f4e2172997bd97The book I’m reading right now -and highly recommend- is Joel Osteen “You Can You Will”. In the book, he talks about how many people give up on their dreams because they lose sight of what it is they are reaching for. Osteen states that you must keep something in your eyesight that will remind you to focus and remind you of what you’re working toward. So, if you want a new house, keep a key on your ring chain or a picture of your dream house on your desk. Set something out to keep your eye on the prize.
More important than anything, you have to believe in yourself! I usually don’t believe people when they say they have no idea what they want to do in life. I believe that they are scared to do it! Now if your not totally sure right some stuff down that you enjoy and cross it off until you figure it out. Thinking about it can only take you so far, you have to put in some action and set it into motion!!

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You Have To Do It For You!

blogger-image-600708143I’m a firm believer in if you do what you love success will come. It may not be within a week/month/year, trust it will take time. You will have to work hard! But if it’s something your very passionate about, it won’t seem like work at all.Find what you love to do and do that. I would rather be broke and doing what I love to do than miserable and making somebody else rich in the process.

If you can’t stop thinking about it; DO IT! I had dreams when I was younger. I was very passionate about certain things. Somewhere along the way I felt like my dreams weren’t valid. My dreams were too big to reach. I would constantly talk myself out of those dreams “like girl tone it down”. I think this was because I didn’t see anyone else reaching for these dreams. At a young age, I was preached at to go to school, get good grades, and get a good job. That was the path that was said to me so much; I kind of lost sight of what it was I really wanted to do and began to adopt that view. I think this is mainly why I am taking so long to finish school –lol- because I know that it’s not what I am passionate about. It wasn’t that I couldn’t do the work, I just didn’t want to. I felt like it was a waste of time.- I’m going to finish thoughblogger-image-1530819145

It wasn’t until I lost my financial aid did I really began to think about what I wanted to do in life. When making this decision I had to realize I couldn’t do this for anyone, but myself. I thought about all the things I loved to do, like hobbies or things I would love to do. This took some soul searching. I didn’t really get to explore a lot of things I liked when I was younger due to time or money. I come from a single parent household. My mother didn’t always have time to take me to practices due to her work schedule. I was in band in elementary school and danced when I was in middle and high school, but that was as far as it went. If the bus couldn’t take me home, I couldn’t walk, or I couldn’t find a ride, IT WASN’T HAPPENING. So I didn’t really get to explore the things I really wanted to, like gymnastics, volleyball, cheer leading, dance team etc. Now that I am older, it was a bit more challenging to find things I am passionate about. I would be so envious of people who knew without a doubt that they wanted to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or own their own business. I found myself comparing my journey to theirs. Asking myself why can’t I be more like them and what are they doing differently than me?
Now, if you’re religious-like me- this is where God became a huge factor. I was lost and I needed guidance. I began to be very specific in my prayers. This is just what worked for me. Now that I know what I want to do and I have a vision in my head of the “end game and finish line” –let’s be honest it aint over till you’re 6 feet under- I’m killing myself trying to make it happen. I work a full time job, a part time job, and after that I hustle for myself. It’s hard. I’m not going to lie to you, but at the end of the day-I sooo hate that phrase, but it’s fitting here- I know I have to push myself to do better and get to where I want to be. You have to do it for you!AAEAAQAAAAAAAAKSAAAAJDc3MmQzOGJkLTNhNGItNGRiZi05MjkyLWE1MmEwOTIxNjdhMg

Your Journey

As much as we like to say, “I don’t care what people think about me, it don’t matter to me” let’s get to the core of this. We ask for advice, we tell our friends the latest tea and gossip about others, or ourselves, we delve out our deepest fears and biggest dreams; all for validation.
Some of us seek validation. By doing this we put limits upon ourselves. We compare our journey to the next person’s for validation.

2As a 25 year old female I look at people my age or older -sometimes younger- and think “damn like they got their shit together, and I’m just a complete mess” I would sit and envy folks who knew exactly what they wanted to do in life. What I didn’t realize is that I was putting limits upon myself.
Everybody has his or her own path to take in life. My belief is God gave every single person on this earth, his or her own purpose. And every body’s path to their purpose is not the same. My path was meant to be the way it is for a reason. Now we may knock ourselves off said path, BUT what God has for you will never miss you. So you may have delayed your purpose, but you will get there, he promises that.

31For those that don’t know, I’m a reader. I LOVE BOOKS. I love learning. I have a very active imagination. Books can paint a picture for me, which no movie ever could. One book that really helped me to see that my journey to my purpose wasn’t supposed to be compared to another was The Alchemist by Paulo Coehol. -If you haven’t read it GREAT read!

21I say this because we can get so wrapped up in how successful someone else is, that we forget that we are doing better than others too. The same way you are comparing yourself to the next person, there’s someone doing the exact same thing to you. So don’t be so wrapped up in how long the journey, there is beauty in the struggle. What your going through now is only preparing you to fulfill your purpose.

I really want to get deeper into this, so I will break this up into a couple a blogs, so hold on tight shit is definitely about to get REAL!

Until next week…

If You can Dream It..

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So, if you can’t tell by now there’s definitely been a theme to this blog thus far. Inspiration. The reason behind the theme for this blog is myself of course.

One night I dreamed and I fell so in love with my dream world I didn’t want to wake up. When I finally did wake up, it was like a light bulb went off. Something just clicked. I decided from that point on I didn’t want to be a dreamer anymore. I wanted my life to be so awesome that I would rather stay awake than dream it. From that day forward I changed my whole thought process. It was as if I was in a fog for 25 years of my life and when I woke up suddenly everything became clear. You can have the life you dream of. It’s that simple. If you can imagine it then you can become it. I wrote a list of everything I had always dreamed I wanted to do and I have begun to check the list off. This feeling I have inside of me everyday now I want everyone to feel this way.

I want to share my story so that it may help someone else feel this way. I used to loathe getting out of bed and facing the world but now I can’t wait to embrace it and it’s endless possibilities. I read this quote and it stuck with me (pictured) has to be by far my favorite quote especially for this year. So, if you take nothing else from the last couple of post please take this with you. If your mind can conceive it, you can achieve it!Inspire