Recently events/circumstances have happened to me that have caused me to take a step back and deal with them. I completely checked out of my life for about 2 weeks. I’m still putting the pieces together and every day is getting easier but it’s still a struggle. I know you all are wondering what the heck happened?!? Well that topic, for personal reason, will remain off limits until I feel that I can handle sharing it with the whole world. For now, it’s my little secret that I have to fight every day to deal with. However, while dealing with my situation I was hit with some thoughts while reflecting on it.
Your crew, your homies, your friends. Nothing lets you know who is really there for you than going through a traumatic circumstance. For me, while going through any situation I feel alone, even though I know I am not. My circle and their faith in the lord really let me know that although I felt alone, I was not. The constant phone calls and texts I got was overwhelming, in a good way. It’s very important to build a good group of friends. I do have family and they support me very much -to the point where I could get by without having friends –lol- seriously my family is awesome. However, I don’t know where I would be without the support of my friends. To be able to go through this experience and knowing that many of them have been through it too was very comforting. It’s during these times in our lives you find out who’s about you and who’s still about you Drake voice. It’s also during these times you find out who is there not just for the benefit of you but for the benefit to you. Did you catch that? I truly believe those are the people God has aligned you with.
Dealing with it.
Any traumatic situation/circumstance is going to be hard period. I know for some people they are able to put this mask up and pretend everything is ok until the work day/ or whatever it may be that you leave the house for. For me, however, there was no hiding it. It was simply easier for me to sit at home and cry rather than be a complete mess at work. Yes, there were some days where I would have to work and I would have to run to the bathroom and cry it out. Unfortunately, I’m not made out of money and I don’t have the luxury of working from home. Point I’m making is, its ok to feel like crap and completely check out. Remember not to stay there. That this too shall pass. Do not sink so low that you cannot see your way out. There is an end to everything.
Talk it out.
Whether you have to talk to yourself, your dog, the wall, or talk to a friend-just make sure it’s someone who doesn’t mind you constantly talking about it to the point of insanity- trust and believe I wouldn’t
have gotten through any of it without being able to talk it out no matter if it was to a wall. It’s important to get the thoughts out. Write them down if you have to. Being bottled up is not healthy and trust me the bottle can only hold so much before it explodes.
Like I said before, everyday gets better but every day is still a struggle. It’s going to be. It’s a fact. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and take your time. Time heals all wounds. However, time is the hardest thing to get through. Just keep busy. I would reflect from the time I got home all the way until went to bed. It’s important not to dwell, just reflect. If your religious this is the time I would talk to God. This is the time I would meditate. This is the time I would cry it out if I needed to. There’s no right way to heal, these are just the things I found helpful to me.
I wrote this post in hopes that this would help someone, not to expose my life. If you’re grieving or going through a situation that you just don’t think you can handle, I guarantee you are not alone. There’s help! There is someone you can talk to- a super plus is you always have yourself, you might feel crazy at first, but the more you get it out the less crazy you feel- I hope these words find someone in need
Until next time….. live love.